I’m Nichollette — womb-led, spirit guided, mama made.
Ask anyone who’s known me long enough, and they’ll tell you — without hesitation — that I was never supposed to be a Mother. For most of my life, I said an emphatic “no” to Motherhood — the kind that came before the question was even finished. I was sure that path wasn’t for me.
It wasn’t clear to me then, but now I underestand that my emphatic “no” was rooted in fear — fear of repeating the traumas, disappointments + emotional wounds I carried from childhood. I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to my children’s every need, protect them from the traumas + triggers of this world, afraid I wouldn’t perfect the mother, afraid I couldn’t give them a life free from pain + sadness.
So how did a woman so resistant to Motherhood find herself freebirthing her daughter at home, in sacred waters, surrounded only by peace — no doctors, no drugs, no fear, no pain — and now joyfully breastfeed her four-year old daughter with dreams of more daughters (yes, nothing but more girls. I’ve already talked it over with the Most High and it is confirmed).
How did I move from resistance to reverence?